If you put a frog in a pot of boiling water, it will leap out to save itself. If you put it in a cool pot of water and slowly increase the temperature to boiling, it will likely die.I was the latter, or headed there...
About a year ago I started feeling overwhelmed by the amount of work I was taking on. I was managing 3 mid sized and 2 smaller projects of different types with 4 different groups. About half of the work I was doing I had been rewarded for going the extra mile to gather the facts and pushing for a solution.
In a very short period of time 2 more mid-sized projects were added and something that was supposed to go away remained. The projects had complicated solutions with multiple subject matter experts and no real "dictator" to call the shots. I was working with known difficult people who complained a lot. As a project manager, I may have been expected to lead certain efforts in a round table of opinion generators. I remember feeling that the quality of work anyone was doing was low - but expected.
As the year met the halfway mark, I felt a new big project come on just as 2 projects were winding down, and I was juggling too much. My boss was often too busy to talk about my work, and had been handed a promotion and a new child to his plate. I don't think he really thought about the amount of work I was doing compared to other project managers.
Then my boss came to me and told me people had complained about me - gave me a list of random items that had been escalated to him. They were things I would not escalate. I had just had my annual review, which was positive, and to have a problem brought to me after the year I had - it didn't make a lot of sense. My boss had no clear plan of action, but to do some "PR" work to see if I could fix it.
I had a strong feeling that the problems weren't really me. As I talked to each of my project leads, only one was a problem and he had a history of being difficult and getting special treatment. Someone who makes things sound fine - but complains after the game is over. One lead even said so much that what I was facing was a planned effort to put me on a program and get me out.
I thank heavens for the wealth of inspiration I felt and from the strength and comfort from friends and mentors. The more I talked with people, the stronger I felt this was not something I wanted to or needed to work hard at. The problem was embedded within a system of problem seekers, not solution finders. This wasn't a fall or a fail - it was an intervention. Mine.
When you're skating, or skiing, or doing anything at a fast velocity and you feel things start to fall....STOP. Let go. Listen to the calm voices, be they inward or outward. If possible walk away and find the situation that will work for you.
At first this felt like giving up or failure. I turned to my faith. I prayed for guidance and asked everyone around me for wisdom, prayers and patience. I thought about the 3 things I would need to move on and they were: focus on work, a good team feeling, and work closer to home. I also wanted to be out of work no more than 6 weeks and in actuality, it was 4. I came up with my elevator pitch of what I was looking for, why I left my job, and sought out 2 references who were willing to help me.
LinkedIn proved a great support for finding people who could help get my resume to the front of the line.
This doesn't always happen but in my recovery, I decided that whatever happened it would be ok. I decided to live with the temporary discomfort of not knowing how it would work out each day. Whenever possible, I tried to help other people with their problems - or to sit with them when they had a downer.
Recovery happens quicker when you stop, look ahead, move on.

